The Panic-Button

I'm so easily get influenced la. =( And the fact that I blushes easily is disabling me to make the poker face.

I'm feeling damn sleepy now.

Got my second cheque today. Don't ask me to treat you guys or whatsoever. I will, when I feel like it. If I don't, don't bug me.

Ate YeeSang with friends today for lunch. Yeah, and that's about it.

Tomorrow is "Hari Wilayah." Another public holiday. *sigh*

Going school this Saturday with Val and Teddy to see Mrs. Rozario. Ngeh ehhehehe... Got presents for us wor. XD Can't wait.

After which, I will be having my fourth driving lesson. *weak smile*

....

Dah. Eyes dropping d. Wonder how long I'll take to get my ass of the chair I'm sitting at..

... I ter-rasa my creativity 'terbantut' jor.

The MAIN reason I've not been posting many photos was because I'm scared. Not lazy.

I don't think I have the courage to get my camera out whenever I want to. Especially in the office, which I think things are suppose to look more serious in here.

And camera = not serious, therefore, is a no-no in office, I think.

Especially when you're alone with your colleagues and not your close friends.

When I was in school, it's a total different environment la!!!! Got so many 'kaki' to take photos with. They don't give you a weird look if you brought your camera out. INSTEAD, they'll hover around you and start taking photos with you! =D lol. This reminds me of Lynnett Yip. XD

Hahahahaha!!!

Was looking at my archieves. So many nice photos I took la. With friends, school building, and some random photos.

Remember the "Under The Table" theme thingy photos @ CBN? Where Teddy, Kim, and I went to the extent to capture pics of us UNDER the table?

There's also my Port Dickson trip. It was just another casual trip, just abit further from usual. But the photos I'd captured..

Ah.. the memories~

Wonder when I'll get my courage back to bring my camera out wherever I go.. and I mean ANYWHERE. Not only for events and stuffx going on..

Hmmm...

P.S: Me can't sleep. Slept from 7-11pm just now. Got work. Gonna sleep soon. Zzzzzz~

Life is so sad. And in a way, not fair.

That was not the first time I felt bored and jobless at my office. Today, I was officially JOBLESS for FEW HOURS and doing practically NOTHING but YET you have to ACT like you're WORKING.

Like Jess said, THAT was so much more worse than actually having some work to do, where you can focus on the job, not even realizing so much time had slipped. I kept looking at the watch, wondering why it's still so early for lunch. Lunch at 12.30pm btw. Waited from the morning, killing some time by updating my index list for both fixed income and annual reports SLOWLY. =( And helping Aunt Carmen abit on filing.

When it's ALMOST but NOT lunch yet, I think I've already entered the 'internal rotting' process of mine. *sobs*

And when it's lunchtime, it DOESN'T help much. Minus the fact that it kinda reduced my "loneliness level" since I'm having lunch with Teddy and Cheryl. = I still can't get myself to smile, knowing I still have a half day left at the office to live through.

=( And yeah. I can online. Sure. But my pc is using WINDOWS 95!!!!!!!!! SO VERY THE NOISY AND SLOW!!!!!!!! I had to wait for almost HALF AN HOUR to wait for it to TELL ME that it's SAFE to SHUT your PC. ==" Usually at home I just left it to shut down by itself.. ish.

When I was having a chat with the receptionist outside my floor, she can't help laughing at me!! And she thought SHE and one of the internal audit people were the few laupeh ones with WINDOWS 98.

UWAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See see I lagi lauya than them by having a pc using WINDOWS 95. If I'm not mistaken, I was about 8 years old I think when I started using a pc with WINDOWS 95 system ok!!!!!!! And THAT'S where I started!! My starting point of getting myself involved with IT stuff.

And to think that having a pc at house so much more high tech than the one at office.. oh dear. ~_~ Got degraded from XP to 95!!!!!!

Another thing I am feeling so depressed about is that...

OMG. So sad.. =(

Yeah, been using WebMessenger whenever I get the chance to use the pc. Don't usually sit at my place where my pc is. My job was 99% manual. Alot of arrangements of reports alphabetically.. and you know, stuff like that.

*sigh*

I KNOW!!!!

It's sad to know that your friends have so much work to do, when you have none but kept complaining to them how bored you are. =( You think I feel good meh..

*sigh*

And oh! I got work in the end. Till now still haven't finish. =D so happy la at that moment. Somehow, I don't like the fact that I'm getting paid to 'goyang kaki.'

Call me silly, but that's just what I am. =)

And yeaaaaaaa baby, i'll make a good employee in future. =D

TS coming back tmr. Can't wait.

Till next entry, see you!